Alone I Stand

Alone I Stand.
Captured by reality..surrounded by so many, yet alone I stand. In a world, that will turn it's back in an instant, I stand alone, gaining strength and resistance. I come before you as a woman strong, proud, and true. With two babies on my hip, lugging diaper bags, and purses, a laptop, and the latest copy of Cosmo, alone I stand in a room full of millions. I seperate myself, to only keep myself sane. I'm content in my quiet time, where I can reflect on my day. As I lay the babies down to rest, while singing sweet lullabyes...I turn, shut the door, exit the room, to stand alone, and feel every breath, every shutter of pain, but most importantly every sense of JOY I have received from the day. Then, I pray. Praying for forgiveness, and my blessings, and for all the ones I love, even if they have hurt me. By me being able to stand alone....I.....am....FREE.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

 (Missing FLorida...)


Knowing there is so much to change, like, I gotta get ALL these things RIGHT, before I can do this...yet slowly changing, and seeing results...finally. (and I'm not even talkin about weight here people!) lol

Letting go is the hardest part but the best thing for me. Why fight it? There's nothing left to fight really. Said it all...done it all, to what? Do it all again..............and again? The signs and the truth are all in my face..yet I hold on, for what? For fear..of the unknown?? I'm thinking so. Holding on, only brings pain. I just have to let go. Simply, let go.

Begin again for REAL. No facades, no fake in my face. No lies and hate. None of that. I'm so content with being alone, that it's hard for me to open up to someone else, because when you finally do, is usually when something bad or disappointing happens. So, you shield yourself. You put your guard up, and that is that!

Now..breaking through the shell.  Changing the way the mind thinks, naturally, from what it knows. Learn something ELSE! CHANGE your thoughts. If being hurt can cause someone SO much pain because it never would go away, can damage or scar them. Realizing this is key, because you will be a bitter old Betty, grouchin at everybody. Lol! I speak on this, because completely letting go, is hard, and I know firsthand. I'm at a point in my life, that I feel it's time to let go. Let go of a past that tries to drag me down, and hold me captive. To let go of any and all negative vibes I have around me. Letting go, brings life to new things, and I think I finally figured it out! :)
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