revelation.

Gaining apocalyptic control. Crucial beyond measure. Slapping me in my face, awakening all senses. Coming correct before thee. Finally understanding all that was fogged. Breathing in deep, and breathing out without thinking, not even for a second. Above all most high regards, realizing so much to be true. Feeling every sensation all the way down to the edges of my fingertips......Shake. Release. The End.

 (Missing FLorida...)

Knowing there is so much to change, like, I gotta get ALL these things RIGHT, before I can do this...yet slowly changing, and seeing results...finally. (and I'm not even talkin about weight here people!) lol

Letting go is the hardest part but the best thing for me. Why fight it? There's nothing left to fight really. Said it all...done it all, to what? Do it all again..............and again? The signs and the truth are all in my face..yet I hold on, for what? For fear..of the unknown?? I'm thinking so. Holding on, only brings pain. I just have to let go. Simply, let go.

Begin again for REAL. No facades, no fake in my face. No lies and hate. None of that. I'm so content with being alone, that it's hard for me to open up to someone else, because when you finally do, is usually when something bad or disappointing happens. So, you shield yourself. You put your guard up, and that is that!

Now..breaking through the shell.  Changing the way the mind thinks, naturally, from what it knows. Learn something ELSE! CHANGE your thoughts. If being hurt can cause someone SO much pain because it never would go away, can damage or scar them. Realizing this is key, because you will be a bitter old Betty, grouchin at everybody. Lol! I speak on this, because completely letting go, is hard, and I know firsthand. I'm at a point in my life, that I feel it's time to let go. Let go of a past that tries to drag me down, and hold me captive. To let go of any and all negative vibes I have around me. Letting go, brings life to new things, and I think I finally figured it out! :)

Boggled..

My mind is so boggled from here to there, or anywhere really. It's like I think of this, I think of that, then who remembers what is this or that. I feel like going this way, then this..other...way, I will go. I start something, just to not finish it, and I'm always on the go....

Sincerely,

Me

A tumbleweed

Blowing in the wind....letting go...realizing so much that has been left behind. A mind of my own. Secrets all untold. Pushed to the max to some extent, yet it only makes me grow. Taking chances that I never knew I had it in me. Becoming the woman that I know I should be. Embracing the future that I know is so bright. Filling my heart with gladness and delight. Having true friends that help me be a better me. My two beautiful angels that God gave me to set my heart free. I have so many struggles daily, yet I can truly say I love my life, because I LOVE myself, and I know that is the first step in becoming who I am. At almost 29 years old, I feel like I'm wise beyond my years. Each day trying to uplift others with their innermost fears. If I happen to fall, or get knocked down, I just rise again, because they say there is no rainbow without the rain, and I've seen my share of rainy days. They don't stop me, nor take my joy away. If you are in my life, then you know this to be true. That not only do I love myself, but I also love you...